Sunday, December 30, 2012

New Years Resolutions

"I am empowered to move forward or make space and my gift is letting go," reads my horoscope.

I could look back and see where I came from and see all what is "wrong" with my world — or I can look forward and create something new and wonderful for myself.

I choose to be true to myself and will only regret the opportunities I don't take to seek my heart's desire. The air is alive with wonderment and magic. There is a pervading feeling of the anticipation of something magnificent. I trust that changes within me are occurring on subtle levels rather than in dramatic shifts into a whole new reality. Awareness comes continually at the pace that I am able to process comfortably.

I am contentedly aware of the ebbs and flows of progression as they happen. I calmly listen to my inner being during these times and follow its promptings. I surrender to the quietness within to allow integration to occur with relative ease.

I am a cocoon. I am learning to follow the inner guidance of my heart. I observe the thoughts that are coming forth and understand that my experiences from the past are now history, yet are being reviewed, one by one. Out of that observation I realize that these experiences helped me to get to the present time-space reality. It is at this point that I am truly learning who I am. I discern that which I truly am from all that I am not. The result is a greater harmony within. My soul acknowledges all that no longer works for me and creates a new pattern that will take me in the new direction I desire.

I am open to allow growth without judgment or question, knowing my experiences were a necessary part of my growth during this lifetime. I love myself unconditionally, regardless of what others think. I allow myself to be free of the past, yet accept my "gifts" which the past provides.

Interestingly, dancing was a doorway into my new life — my door to a joyful time. I now give energy to my new life. The present manifests in the most wonderful and surprising manner! It is time to focus on a pleasant life. After all, what I focus upon provides the energy to create it.

I am grateful!

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Sunday, October 14, 2012

Belief in Separation or Belief in Love?

Is it possible to feel a strong, loving connection to my children who don't speak to me because of a shunning order? Yes, I reply. I received some photos from family members, which I wrote about in a previous post. You may recall, the first run of photos only included my grand-daughter. In a second set, the family members provided photos of my son, daughter-in-law and grand-daughter. They selected photos of my children with their backs turned toward me. Not so with my grand-daughter, however. I looked into her sweet eyes and saw love and innocence. I knew that she was too young to believe — on her own — that she must shun me. Her soul would never shun me unless she was first taught to believe those harsh religious rules.

Nevertheless, in faith I keep a box in which I am storing gifts for my beloved grand-daughter. I feel a strong love bond for her, even though I have never met her, in spite of her being three years old at the time of this writing. Who knows? One day she may come looking for her missing grandma. In other words, on some etheric level, it seems we have this beautiful loving bond keeping us connected in a most magical, mystical union. I am ecstatic! I know now what the scripture at Romans 8:39 really means when it says, "Neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of [my own Divine nature]," — not even belief in shunning! I am truly in awe!

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Friday, September 28, 2012

Fond Memories of Saskatoon

My cousin just blogged about her trip to Saskatoon and it made me reminisce — I once lived in Saskatoon, from 1978 – 2002. But, I must clarify that I really started LIVING after my divorce in ’97.

The Saskatoon summers were awesome when the heat waves hit. For me, a heat wave was ideal weather. Heat waves made the winters bearable. Saskatoon was so hot I would dip a large overshirt in water and then wring it out to wear on the bus in order to keep cool while getting downtown (laugh if you must!). A half an hour later, walking around the street events, the shirt was bone dry. I never left home without a bottle of water during those heat waves. I loved the Fringe Festival, usually held in the Broadway District, or I’d take in the sidewalk sales downtown. I also loved to dance at the Blues Festivals and the Jazz Fests. Great music for those slow, sensuous West Coast Swings or the lively East Coast Swings!

During the heat waves, even the nights were hot. I liked to sleep outside on my balcony, where the air was moving. True, I had an air-conditioner, but I didn’t appreciate the roaring sound or the blasting cold air. Besides, I could never get used to the heat if I used air-conditioning — temperatures were too extreme! Oh, and the thunderstorms that erupted after a heat wave were something else! I so loved the thunderstorms. What impressive light shows they were!

Winters, on the other hand, were bitterly cold, with wind chills running to minus 40 and 50 degrees below zero. The steam from the traffic froze when it left the tailpipes and literally hung in the air — ice fog. These frigid dips of temperature lasted three weeks at a stretch some winters.

The Bessborough (“The Bezz” by locals) is one of the nicest hotels in the city, with one of the finest city views along the river. From that vantage point, the University of Saskatchewan (U of S) can be viewed across the bridge and to the Northeast. The trees are lush, with a differing panoramic view with the coming of each new season.

The U of S Dance Club held an annual dance event and sometimes it was held in the Bessborough’s grand ballroom. Our dance group watched a great Latin dance show one year, and then spent the rest of the night doing waltzes, foxtrots, cha-chas and rumbas. The event included dinner — and the food, too, was exquisite (first time I ever reveled in a dessert of Key Lime Pie).

I’ll always remember my dance adventures in Saskatoon. They were some of my happiest memories up till then. Those dancing days gave me the momentum to move ever forward in my life. Those days gave me courage to live my dreams to write and publish my book (which I just got back from the editor). I have a little more polishing, but it’s shaping up nicely. My editor assured me it’s a great story that needs to be told.

I celebrate Saskatoon!

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Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Beliefs about Equality

I have been staying more positive lately, not sliding into great holes of anger and despair. What am I doing differently? I'm actively feeding my mind in a more positively-focused direction. For example, I watched several videos recently on Wayne Dyer's book, The Power of Intention. I read the book years ago and found it easy to believe, as it aligned with the many new things I was learning, during my theological purge of the family religion. I was filling my mind and heart with wonderful new ideas!

I believe it is imperative to replace the negative beliefs with positive ones. I'm not sure how it all works, but I do believe staying positive is important for one's emotional well-being. I believe in love and peace. I surrender to the Divinity within myself and in all that is.

The simple act of believing in these basic truths has a calming effect on my entire being. Along with believing comes a knowing.

One of my greatest realizations is understanding that religions basically believe all the same things. The divisions occur when people separate themselves from their fellow humans by believing their religion is right and all others are wrong. If humans want religion to heal humanity, then they may wish to look at all the similarities, rather than the differences. I believe in simplicity!

If we are all one with the Divinity within us, the divisions can no longer exist. Instead, love, peace and harmony shall most naturally prevail.

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Saturday, September 1, 2012

Religiously Conditioned Women

Religiously-conditioned women think differently than secular women about their lot in life. Especially about roles. In patriarchal religions, many young girls grow up being told their best life could only be in service to a husband and a bunch of children. A woman is not in control of her own body, her husband is, in what the Bible calls "husbandly ownership." — Jeremiah 31:32. Secular women often think beyond such a limited scope of baby-making by choosing a career.

As long as the religiously-conditioned woman tows the line they will fit into a patriarchal family. Provide sex on demand for her husband — fake it if necessary — raise those kids, go to church and pretend everything is perfect. Then, do even more to hold everything together. In my family, whatever I did was never enough for those patriarchal elders, until I finally burned out. Only after getting into therapy, did I discover my family religion was filled with delusional thinking.

The version of truth I was taught: the imminent coming of Armageddon followed by the thousand year reign of Christ where earthly conditions would be perfect. Other religions have still other versions of the Truth. Religions all teach they are each the only "true" religion. That in itself sounds delusional.

Looking back, it all sounds delusional. I didn't know it back then, since I was religiously conditioned, at the time. It took decades of therapy to heal those delusional beliefs.

Religious life is still patriarchal in nature, meaning the man is the head of the family and everything he says goes. The wife must support him, no matter how delusional the thoughts and beliefs.

It would be awesome for women to try some independent thinking, apart from delusional religion. First, they would have to see a need for such independent thinking, which might break down the conditioning and mind control of religion.

(revised September 3, 2012)

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Sunday, July 22, 2012

About Esther Harrison

After walking away from an antiquated patriarchal belief system, "Phoenix of Faith" author has discovered she has created a healthy new reality. How did that come about?

Beyond farm life, religious activity with the family, and attending school as an "outcast" she was isolated from social contact. She grew up feeling like she did not "belong" — anywhere. While in her 40's, Esther had reached a point in her life where she didn't like who she saw in the mirror. She wasn't happy in her marriage. She also had serious doubts about life which the family religion was unable to address.

Esther looks back and wishes she had left her marriage after three miserable years where she had a safe exit point. Instead, she let herself be assimilated by the religion that she had once tried to leave at age sixteen. It was a religion that openly enabled — and even encouraged — all the dysfunction in a marriage like hers. Sadly, the teachings of the family religion were all she had ever known.

Could she change her beliefs enough to change her disparate — odd — reality? "Phoenix of Faith" is the result after becoming aware of the religious and social forces influencing her life.

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